hey.
last night was one of those nights where i couldn’t get to sleep, and when i finally did, it would only last for a few minutes.
it’s easy to write when the rest of the world is asleep. no one is looking over my shoulder or asking what i mean. truth is, meaning is hard. finding something to hold onto even when hope is hiding isn’t easy.
i hope you know what i mean.
here’s the last few months of my sleepless nights.
4-19-18
say we’re clueless and insecure
we’re just being kids
spent so much time killing ourselves
we forgot how to live
when the tables all turn
and the cards all fold
we were right to rebel
we won’t do as we’re told
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6-14-18
you said you can do this on your own
you keep pushing me away
i know it hurts you inside
but i’ll come back again
you’ve been feeling so misplaced
but you found comfort in your hideaway
locked in your room
ding things you swore you’d never do again
but we all need you
we all need you here
so when morning comes
you’ll have to unlock your door
you can’t hide anymore
you’ll have to face the world
(i’m sorry)
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7-17-18
to you it’s just another night
but to me it’s another fight
shadows surround me now
and i am terrified of what’s inside of me
i want to be filled with you
but i feel so empty still
i wish i could talk to you
i know you’re listening
but i’ll keep it to myself
i’ve broken all my laws
but i won’t murder you too
there’s more, but i’m never really happy with what i write. this is all i could find that i liked enough to share.
stay alive
–
jenny
aliens are real 